Bullied and burned. Beaten and tormented isn't something most teens go through all at once. Okay, it probably is but not for me. I've always been the one to stay out of every one's way. I knew what to do and I knew my place. But now things are starting to change.
I've always been the shy, awkward, and clumsy person. The people I've grew up going to school with have seen me go through every embarrassing change and awkward moment. I haven't had but one boyfriend. I don't think being who I am will ever be enough. I'll always be the weird girl. I have been through my tomboy, stupid, punk, loner,and girlish phase.
I have been wanting a change for awhile, but now that I'm starting a new year at school I have never wanted it more. I'd give anything to make everyone forget who I was. I want them to see who I am now. What I'm all about.
I want to show them I'm not the same girl in the seventh grade. Not the girl they can make fun of any more. Not the one they choose to tease for fun. That for the rest of high school is going to be different. I want the best years of my life to be perfect.
I won't be the girl walking down the hall with her head down. I won't be the girl scared to look people in the eye, say sorry for every little thing, let people walk all over me,let people get to me. I am going to change everything about me. I am going to be a whole new person.
I will be the girl they don't want to mess with. The girl that will up anyone who crosses her. But I also don't want to be the one every one hates, just fears. The one who has more than I really do. Sparkly. So, what's a girl to do? When she doesn't even know if she wants what she just said. Where do I stand?
~GWN*
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